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everything. I had pains allover Ine and burning thirst.
I did I10t dare to drinl{, and indeed, I cannot do so yet.
At last, I fainted. I thought I should surely die, for all
night I was like one in ag·ollY. I ,vantecl only to think the
hol.y names Jesus, 1JIary, Joseph; but I could not even
remember the words. Then I felt how little Inan can do of
hin~self; he cannot even think. on God, unless God gi ve
hiln grace to do so. l\Iy very desire, ho,vever, ,vas an
effect of that saUle divine grace. I l~ne\v "vhcn E"ather
Niesing came, yet I could neither Inove nor speak. I kne\\',
likewise, that he had the little book with llilll aud I hoped
he \vould pray. \Vhen he began, his eOlnpassion penetrat­
ed me like warlnth. I regained consciousness, and with
deep emotion I felt that I could again rerllcmber the nalnes
Jesus, l\Iar~y, Joseph! Life was a gift of the priestly bless­
ing." 'l'hat evening she again Leg-ged a benediction and
asked also for the relic of St. Coslnas. Next da}T, she
relapsed into a nliserable state, though she was able to
articulate. ' I pressed the relic to Illy heart,' she said:
, I saw the saint b.y nle and a streanl of \varnlth passed
over me. I have now a little lllore life,though I am full of
racking pains. l\Iy greatest torrnent is thirst, but I dare
not Jrilll{.' All Christlnas Eve she lay like a corpse; ~ut
since her increase of suffering the Abbe Lambert is better."

Sister EUlnlerich begged the Pilgriln to defer his visit

next day till noon, as she had need of repose, which request
gave rise to the follo'vving lined in his journal : ­

" Her request is like an insinuation that the Pilgri111 is

troublesome, as if he \\"ere ever \\Tilling to prove such to
her. He cannot understand it! It saddened hilll during

the holy nigllt; he l{l1oWS not why he should be Inade to

suffer so! At noon, when he saw l1er, she was cured,

cheerful, though weak. 'I received at the Crib,' she said,