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I thought I was obese multiple times. around like the hashtags they’ve And this is where the third ingre-
It’s awful,” she says. “My whole family become. This foresight = ingredient dient, the true secret sauce, finally
was telling me I looked terrible. They number two. hits me. Turns out, Emma does have
were like, ‘You look like you’re dying.’ something all the other normal
I was like, ‘I think I look great.’” E M M A I S U S E D T O H E A R I N G girls don’t, and it comes across best
This is one of the reasons she’s rumors about herself. Some, like the on video: She truly does not care
vowed never to use Facetune or one about a certain curly-haired boy whether or not she’s cool. Or whether
photo-manipulation software. “I she’s dating, are can’t-confirm-on- people think her necklaces are cool or
refuse to do that because nobody the-record-but-true. Others… her turtleneck, her hair, her life, her
needs to think I look like that,” she “People think I don’t shower,” opinions. She is DGAF incarnate, the
explains. “I look the way I look.” Emma says, sipping an oat-milk personification of all those memes
Seconds later, she’s telling the latte. “I just made a joke about it on involving cartoon characters in
coffee-shop owner that she’s peed in Snapchat and then they took it seri- sunglasses sweeping the horizon for
his other location millions of times ously. I was like, Okay!” nonexistent fucks to give.
and she thanks him for the service. When I was 18, if millions of peo- “I don’t take it too seriously,”
And somewhere in the middle of ple thought there was a chance that Emma says. “It’s like, I have one life.
that pivot, it becomes clear why this maybe I didn’t shower, I would have I’m not going to waste my time being
woman is light-years ahead of decid- immediately booked a one-way ticket all, you know, ‘Take me seriously as
ing between gold and rose gold. back to my parents’ home in the sub- a YouTuber!’ I don’t care, you know
While Instagram is busy forecasting urbs of Chicago and never contacted what I mean? It’s like, watch my vid-
trends for 2020—number one on its the outside world again. Emma just eos—if you hate it, go watch the news
list: “authenticity”—Emma could’ve laughs it off. or something, I don’t know. Like,
taught the master class when she have fun, but I don’t care.”
was 15. She dreamed of becoming a It’s the things she does care
YouTuber—full stop, no gateway-to- “ I H A V E about—her personal life, her roman-
something-bigger—and discovered one life. tic life—that she sees as her next
that “being real” was the ticket to challenge. “I’d like to open up more
success, long before anyone started about my relationship,” she confides.
throwing “raw” and “no filter” W A T C H M Y V I D E O S — “But things change so quickly—if
I F Y O U H A T E I T , I say something now, who knows
G O W A T C H where my life will be in three
T H E N E W S . ” months? I could be pregnant.” (For
the record, Emma has an IUD and
does not plan on getting pregnant.)
Of course, if anyone actually does
know what the world will look like in
three months—or even three years—
it’s probably Emma. The rest of us
are just following along, enjoying the
deeply entertaining ride.
T H I S P A G E
L o u i s V u i t t o n t o p , s k i r t , b o o t s , a n d
e a r r i n g s
O P P O S I T E P A G E
F e n d i j a c k e t , t o p , s k i r t , a n d s o c k s . A n n a
S u i s u n g l a s s e s
H a i r : K r i s t i n E s s . M a k e u p : K e l s e y
D e e n i h a n a t T h e W a l l G r o u p . P r o p s s t y l e d
b y D a n i e l l e v o n B r a u n . P r o d u c t i o n :
C r a w f o r d P r o d u c t i o n s . S e e p a g e 1 1 9 f o r
s h o p p i n g i n f o r m a t i o n .
