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“I don’t know why I did it. I mean, I loved Tony. I didn’t want to
hurt him. Not intentionally. But I guess a part of me must have,
right? I mean, why would I go off with that other guy?”
“But you did go off with him. And now Tony’s dead. How does
that make you feel?”
Tamara scowled at the psychiatrist. “How the fuck do you think
I feel?” Tamara thought. She took a tissue and snorted into it. “All
right, I fucked up. But I’m not like that. I never cheated on him
before. When it happened, he got so mad that he went after the
guy.”
“This isn’t about Tony. It’s about you. Tony’s anger is… was…
his own problem. I’m not blaming you, Tamara. I’m here to help you.
It’s important that we’re honest with one another. If we hold our
anger in, it only eats away at us.”
Tamara didn’t want any of this, but her parents forced her into
it. Therapy. Screw it. Nobody ever got better by talking. There were
other ways to feel good, ways that didn’t involve words. But here
was this psychiatrist, Ms. Van Heuvel, a meddling bitch who
showed up at her parents’ house, sent over by the cops. Well,
‘recommended’ by them. At least, that’s what she thought she’d
heard.
“Tamara,” Ms. Van Heuvel said. “Tell me about the man you left
the bar with. Who was he?”
“I don’t know. I didn’t know him. He was hot, though. Hottest
thing I’d ever seen. Hell, even you would have gone with him.”
Tamara winced. She hadn’t meant to say that.
“Go on,” Ms. Van Heuvel continued, unshaken.
“We… we went out back, to the alley. I know that sounds
slutty, but…. God, I guess I just wanted him. I don’t know why. I
just did. He had this way about him.”
“Did he bite your lip? Is that what I read in the police report?”
Tamara frowned. “Uh… no. I… well, there was blood in my
mouth, so yeah, I guess he must have.”
“Blood? His blood or yours?”

“Huh? I… Ohmigod. It was his! How did you know? I didn’t
remember that until just now. It was freaky. He gave me some of his
blood… and I drank it.”
“Did you like it?”
Tamara looked at Ms. Van Heuvel nervously. The psychiatrist
had a strange look on her face.
“Because if you did, I can make sure you get all you want.”

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